No, not on EWTN.
In the Office of Readings.
Yesterday, today and tomorrow the Office of Readings gives us one of the most remarkable personal accounts of impending martyrdom that you will ever read. St. Ignatius of Antioch, writing while he is escorted under guard to Rome, tells us what he is scared of. And it's not what you or I would be scared of. He tells his friends, I fear your love may harm me. He's worried that they will use their influence in Rome to have Ignatius set free.
In today's passage, St. Ignatius uses language that is at once lyrical and gruesome. Let me be the food of beasts that I may come to God. I am his wheat, and I shall be ground by the teeth of the beasts, that I may become Christ's pure bread...I shall even coax them to devour me quickly and not be afraid of touching me, as sometimes happens.
Read the rest yourselves. You don't want to miss this.